Today I Will Find Joy

Today I will find joy.  Today I will count my blessings, smile more, appreciate all that is right in my world.  I don't know about you, but lately I've been finding myself worrying too much.  Like Olympic size worrying.  Are my children happy? Will they turn in their homework, will they make good choices, find good friends, learn to iron, for heaven's sake?

Will Dave hear soon about his book, will planning a wedding (!) stress me out, will I be a good booster president/wife/mother/servant of the Lord???  Will my new diet and exercise plan get results, will I learn to be more patient, will my carpets ever get cleaned?

Do I need to be nicer (yes), do I stay up too late (again, yes), do I need more healthy food and less Oreos (sadly, yes)?  How will Davis finish his Eagle Scout stuff, how will our new budget work, how can my children develop confidence,  how will I make "all my wildest dreams come true" (Napoleon Dynamite style)?  What ARE my wildest dreams even???

It's exhausting!  Like crazy making.  I've found it's too easy to let all the anxiety ridden "wills, dos, and hows" creep into my psyche and rob me of all the joy that is in my very, very blessed life.

So today I'll be thankful for my husband who has cleaned the kitchen every day for the last two weeks!  (Seriously, I don't know what to do with myself--it's awesome).  I'll be grateful that my six crazy kids genuinely like each other, in spite of their differences or maybe because of them.  I'll enjoy lunch out, a good book, the chance to serve others, a quiet house, a healthy (not perfect) body, and the sound of the rain on my roof.

Because I am blessed.  You are blessed and God is good.